Just another day of life.

Today I'm in Ayutthya visiting my host family from Pre-Service Training--when I was here the first two and a half months.   I forgot just how much I love my host family and how good it feels to be home here.   It's amazing to me how quickly you can come to love people and how much you feel for them when they're away from you.   The last two weeks were kinda lonely and I felt so disconnected from everyone everywhere in every way.   And then I came back here and I feel so happy again.   I was starting to forget why I love Thailand as discouragement was starting to catch up with me.   I think before that life was just going to fast for me to realize I really am struggling with Thai more than I care to admit.   I'm doing fine for being here only 5 months, but that's just it, it's only been 5 months and with everything else I do I'm just not going to be that great with that much time.   But coming back here reminds me how far I've come and that speaking Isaan really is a lot lot lot lot lot lot harder than speaking THai and that I'm not so dumb afterall.   Central Thai is so much easier to understand and everyone tells me how much better I speak, and I feel like I speak better, too.   PLus, I've really come a long way in reading Thai and writing as well.   I used to read every day with the grandpa of the family when I lived here and he used to tell me that I read well, I just need to read more quickly.   ANd I thought to myself, I'm trying as fast as I can.   But today he said I've gotten so good and he was so proud of me.   And I was so happy.   I remember again that I love Thailand and I'm so grateful to be here.